Boulder and the second month.
October 21, 2012 | 12:32 PM
I get the mood to write at weird times, usually when I'm procrastinating on something, in this case my phonetics midterm next Tuesday. Oh well. I don't know if anyone still reads this blog, but it is a good place for me to just clear a lot of the mess that's in my head, and some days I will be thankful for having some form of record of what I've thought of over the years.
It's been two months since arriving in Boulder, and besides spending a lot of money I have been settling quite well I think. Using the word 'quite' is always so understated, and apparently, very British. When speaking English in Singapore you don't realise how much of that creeps into your language, but it's really salient here, and people notice whenever I use 'quite', or 'queue' or something along those lines.
Linguistics people have been awesome though, and that's one American adjective I don't mind using all the time when it makes sense. I know I'm not at my most comfortable yet, cause that's me in Singapore, and you expect that. And I think I understand why wh was so touched when he first hung out with us at WOW, we were so intrinsically Singaporean that you couldn't pretend you were anything else but. Being ten thousand miles away from home you don't realise what you miss till it's right there in front of you. I can be very American, but I do want to still be Singaporean, and so I'm trying very hard not to forget that. Talking to friends back home helps, and I don't think I will ever lose the ability to speak in Singlish.
And I have been thinking too much, and as usual I know that doesn't help. Been talking and going out too much too, but I have been enjoying every single moment. I need to focus. I know I shouldn't waste all that money invested in me, and so I need to evaluate my priorities and start again. The first semester has given me that chance to see how much I can stray away from studying, and halfway through it now I think it's time to wake up my idea a bit. I haven't really figured out how to work that out yet, but I will try my best.
Rei said something of me that day, and I'm glad for it. It is always amazing to hear someone evaluate you, and it is equally amazing that he was right. There's a girl in every grade in school that's like you, the one who makes decisions, the one who plays with the guys and pushes everyone to do things her way (that is kinda off though, haha), and I think it's good, and you should stay that way. Sometimes you wonder why we all love him so much.
It's always a long process trying to figure people out when we're all in a new environment, but somehow I think this group of linguistics people.. it's not going to be hard to hang out with everyone. Alex mentioned how we never have people we're not sure why we're hanging out with, and everyone can talk to everyone. I think we've been lucky.
velda.
